fears getting closer ...
2/19/2013 08:01:00 PM
Assalamualaikum .
It get closer and closer from days to days . and my heart tooo , keep dup dap dup dap waiting for some miracle to happen . i guess . i went to bsn yesterday just to look for maktab pin . but , yes ofcourse it's still unavailable yet as the result is obviously still not coming out . so, waiting . that's people called ikhtiar isn't ?
so the uitm pin too . ptptn ? yes , all after the result . mybe anyone can start apply for the ptptn but i'm not sure i'll apply it for now as ... no one told me too .muehehehe . as usual , soksek soksek my geng told me this this and this then , i'll take my action too . waiting for the kelamkabut habes baru nak gerak . hmm . the point is , can u see how precious the result is ? err . even it's just a piece of paper . *blackandwhite . right ?
i've thought about it so many times . what i've expected to be in university or the same type of college that i'll be in one day . what'll it be ? is it nice ? awesome ? best ? creepy one ? thrilling ? pathetic ? hectic ? or unexpected ? hope it'll be not such a spooky one ! -.-'
i'll try to keep du'a for the best result and the best place to get study after my result this march . yeah for sure it's not easy to find the best best place ever . we have no choice sometimes . so that , thanks to government to give us choice and place to study atleast . if not , where should you study ? get a free education ? hmm . go to other country lah . you have a choice so , u decide . no free in this world okay ?
hmm . still wondering and thinking . what will happen in university later . am i big and matured enough to be in university ? wah , i'd still remember when i was child . i've thought that i could never step forward to that place . what's playing on my mind that time , just 'waahh . yeah . place for the genius people , for business people , surely they've studied a lot to get in here . how can i get in that high place ?' now then, insyaAllah , if i have the chance and rezeki, i wish to get in university too . who doesn't want to emerge triumphant in their studies isn't ? well education have a brighten future .
Ya Allah seriously im so scared . i'm scared if i become anybody else . getting worse . or common said, shocked culture ! well nauzubillah min zalikk ...i don't want to . i have my islam , my parents and my family as well . i'll be not become recon of ME . MYSELF for sure .
Haaa . seriously i'm get jealous with the others who got straight A's in their SPM . really2 . especially the A++++ . impossible for me right ? but who knows ? was i said 'miracle' just now? hehe . just wait and tawakkal . insyaAllah .
My daily things to do everyday just still the same , nothing's changing . keke . but i just received something from my brother and sister . :3 surely happy, satisfied for getting something new and i succeed to reduce my period of sitting in front of lappy for this 2 and 3 days . muehehe . improvement atleast ? might not be last longer .
This Thursday is my schedule for my license . ohhhh maii . the stressed one is my bike thing . pls , i don't like it as for sure because i don't know how how how to ride a bike ! cincauu yoooo . saddiss . i have to as my father told me to . yeah , follow what parents said and it's worked for their child one day . good thing ofcourse .
Now i'm watching DreamHigh 1 . err . no no . already finished it . keke . best drama ! i loike . DH 2 ? hmm . not bad . JB from se7en . heh ? but i still don't watch it . busy with my new stuff and whatsoever . My brother and sister went outstation to Bandung for their work . best for strolling around and i'm here just sitting making some 'fats' . my father just told me last night . ah chukaee ! for adding some kilos . might be . :3 he told me to lessen my supper thing . pardon ? well thats my habit , father . sob3 . he told me that i'm getting fat . serious . But what's my action for the statement ? or comment ? none .
because of boring and no-else-act to do, i'm trying to figure out something for my course and studies later . yeah, just checkout something for some english things . here we are :-
haha . so fun .
about the course, insyaAllah . please do du'a for me too . i'm hoping for TESL . yeah , for my first choice, i chose ASASI BAHASA INGGERIS at UIAM . Ya Allah , im hoping for it badly . although im weak in english , but i want to learn it till i'll get better . i love english . *muehehe*
by hoop or by crook , i gotta wait for the result first . hmm . nothing else . wordless . oke then . waiting for the next entry . salam maghrib . Assalamualaikum (:
Patience is the best way . so, patience . Allah knows the best .
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