I'm tired . My eyes .
بِسمِ اللَّÙ‡ِ الرَّØÙ…ٰÙ†ِ الرَّØيمِ
Assalamualaikum wbt
Alhamdulillah . Never realised that i'm gonna finish my studies as matriculee so soon . This week will be my last week in lecture and being in class . Then another week is going to be my study week . Know what's that meant huh ?
No . Tbh memg excited but fears the most . Yo final exam kot .
InsyaAllah usaha doa and tawakkal . Allah always be here for me . Confidence .
And btw , feeling excited tho ! My gayodaejun sweatshirt has been delivered yesterday ! Feeling waaah . Already ? Yeah took about 3weeks jugak sbnarnya . Hehe . Interested can order now ya . But i know it was out of date . Who cares ? -.- minat xout of date hokay ? *backup diri*
My vouchers are in my hand also . Gonna use it wisely this time . Oh my novels ! But wait , i'm not that novel kaki . I've never truly finished a novel before . Only one not mistaken . Rare heh ? I'll try lah to read novel after this . Gonna change hobby *nak jd ala2 ulat gonggok gitu*
And hm gonna sleep . Early gila tido mlm nie . Tak study lagi . So kena sambung tido nanti nak bgun ! :O
Goodnight ys ! I love u . Lama betul tak cerita kt kamu :( sorry ya . Xsempat . Goodbye ys ! Assalam .
Assalamualaikum .
Tomorrow is the day. It's jumaat . Sayyidul ayyam . Very mulia day as a beginning for this final exam . Pspm (viE) . Very important exam . Must to get 2.0 and above . But , hm . Hard to say that but i know where my place is .
I gotta give the best for the exam . Tried . If i still can't . What can i do . Maybe Allah got the best planning . Kun fayakun .
Ready or not doesn't need to bear in self, but i need to get ready . InsyaAllah . Usaha , doa , tawakal .
Bismillahirrahminirrahim . 🌸
Countdown :* next week homie !
Assalamualaikum .
Demi Allah , hati aku semakin berkencangan . semua orang dah cakap pasal result . yes, for sure malam esok semestinya aku tak taip dah semua nie . memang tak lah kot . mood nak taip , makan , minum , mandi or apa2 lagi memang hilang . tenggelam . hanyut . hangit . cair . hambar etc .
kadang tak tau rasa apa . hilang !
Ya Allah , hanya mampu berdoa dan tawakkal . muslimin muslimat seluruh dunia , doakan kami . kuatkan hati kami . amin .
ramai dah bagi nasihat nie , please listen . (tolonglah) . SPM bukan penamat . masih ada banyak peluang , so jangan kecewa ye . (tenangkan hati diri sendiri) . atleast the best result for our parents .
jangan sedih .
last but not least , redha . mungkin Allah ada rancangan yang lebih baik untuk kita semua . lillahita'alaa ~
Assaalamualaikum .
the exact date , is when ? yeap . for sure cg masita dah bgtau , tarikh SPM yang sebetul2nya ialah .....
the exact date , is when ? yeap . for sure cg masita dah bgtau , tarikh SPM yang sebetul2nya ialah .....
21March 2013
10days from now . so get ready yah .
Assalamualaikum .
hmm . seems like everyday i ask and telling my mother for the same thing .
(books version)
"Mother , kalau ayu dapat result yang mengecewakan macamane ?"
"hmm . takpela . nak buat macamane . apa2 pun keputusan yang dapat , kita redha" :')
Sounds like she was not soo confident with my result . hmm . So me . who said that it'll be fine ? SPM result is not a joke . serious .
for this time being ,this last 9days left , i'll try my best to keep du'a and tawakkal for the best result for all my friends . 0812 .
i keep worrying about my result till i got a worst nightmare last night . Astarghfirullah hal'azim . Nauzubillah .
i'm so scared and shocked till i thought it was true . Alhamdulillah it was a dream and i hope it'll be not the true answer for my result also the future of me .
maybe i should get more du'a before i'm going off to bed .
w'slam ...
p/s : amalkan solat hajat . parents should do the same thing . always du'a . don't give up .
Assalamualaikum .
Alhamdulillah . i got my license . err . P ? no it was L (:
for both . motorcycle and car . the jpj test will be going to April soon . hmm . lambat lagi kan ?
agak2 berjanggut tak nak kena tunggu ? hehe .
tak kot sebab ada lagi benda yang menakutkan sebelum tu . result sPm yang seram sejuk tu lah .
ready dah ke ? *DAH !* sape dah tu ? hamboii . terer nye ko ye :3
my license actually dah lame dah siap . 27Februari haritu lagi haa . tapi sebab aku bertangguh , lambat lar jadinya . xdelah . lagipun aku xnak rush2 jugak . might be aku suka enjoy2 dulu . *nakhilangcuak* kalau awal2 , konfem cuak awal2 . so , xnak xnak . hihihi
Alhamdulillah bestie aku pom dah siap dah lesen dye . kena marah di jpj katanya . huhu . kesian . jpj kadangnye bajet hebat jugak . lalalala #justsaying
gambar tu masa aku darjah 6 . nampak tak kesucian di situ ? :3 *bajet hoi*
xdelah . aku malas nak pi amek gambar . so, aku amek je mane gambar yang ada kat umah nie . jumpe lam almari abg aku . masih tersimpan . so, aku amek je . jimat sket duit . xpayah susah2 pi amek gambar baru .
kan ? gambar tu jugaklah digunakan masa nak masuk SESMA dulu . ohhoi , rindu pulak .
sekarang kena tunggu nak pi blaja motor lar nie . not mistaken, this 23March i'll be start with my lessons . no .just motorcycle . might be i'll get extra period . sebb aku cakap aku still xpandai mane lagi . bagus jugak kalau gtu .
kereta , bulan April nun di sana . hari2 . pergh . busy bhai .
okaylah . tu saje . babai . salam............
p/s : just succeed booked 2 brands kemeja and boot for my brother .
Alhamdulillah . i got my license . err . P ? no it was L (:
for both . motorcycle and car . the jpj test will be going to April soon . hmm . lambat lagi kan ?
agak2 berjanggut tak nak kena tunggu ? hehe .
tak kot sebab ada lagi benda yang menakutkan sebelum tu . result sPm yang seram sejuk tu lah .
ready dah ke ? *DAH !* sape dah tu ? hamboii . terer nye ko ye :3
my license actually dah lame dah siap . 27Februari haritu lagi haa . tapi sebab aku bertangguh , lambat lar jadinya . xdelah . lagipun aku xnak rush2 jugak . might be aku suka enjoy2 dulu . *nakhilangcuak* kalau awal2 , konfem cuak awal2 . so , xnak xnak . hihihi
Alhamdulillah bestie aku pom dah siap dah lesen dye . kena marah di jpj katanya . huhu . kesian . jpj kadangnye bajet hebat jugak . lalalala #justsaying
gambar tu masa aku darjah 6 . nampak tak kesucian di situ ? :3 *bajet hoi*
xdelah . aku malas nak pi amek gambar . so, aku amek je mane gambar yang ada kat umah nie . jumpe lam almari abg aku . masih tersimpan . so, aku amek je . jimat sket duit . xpayah susah2 pi amek gambar baru .
kan ? gambar tu jugaklah digunakan masa nak masuk SESMA dulu . ohhoi , rindu pulak .
sekarang kena tunggu nak pi blaja motor lar nie . not mistaken, this 23March i'll be start with my lessons . no .just motorcycle . might be i'll get extra period . sebb aku cakap aku still xpandai mane lagi . bagus jugak kalau gtu .
kereta , bulan April nun di sana . hari2 . pergh . busy bhai .
okaylah . tu saje . babai . salam............
p/s : just succeed booked 2 brands kemeja and boot for my brother .
kemaren , aku ngn family just pegi umah abg and kakak aku kat KL . Seri kembangan . oke lepas tu balik . (pendek citer) . q rai ngan abg aku sihat Alhamdulillah . q rai ada jugak alahan . kesian dia . letih .
masa tu aku bertolak balik dari KL - KT lah . time tu dah nak masuk maghrib or dah maghrib . nak masuk hutan . ayah aku (abg aku drive) stop dulu pi toilet . then baru jalan balik . kat lam hutan tu tiba2 anak sedara aku nanges . kuat giler . ofcourse semua panik , xtau nak buat ape . kakak aku amek phone then terus pasang qursi zikir bagai . aku pom buke jugak netbuk pasang ayat2 suci Al-Quran . tapi still jugak nanges .
xlama sikit lepas tu, dye stop nanges . lega .
lepas tu pulak , dye nanges balik . kakak aku pom amek air , raup muka dye . Alhamdulillah . she's stopped crying and looked a bit tired (ithought) . ayah aku suh stop makan dulu . she slept .
masuk kedai, dye nanges pulak . but a bit fortunate , just for a while . semua orang tgok . biasalah . tempat macam tu . kalau ada bby nanges konfem jadi tarikan . surely .
lepas siap makan terus balik . nasib baek dye tido .
Alhamdulillah selamat sampai umah .
Maghrib , for the next day . she's crying all of sudden . kuat dye nanges . mak aku buai2 dye . nanges . zikir2 then senyap . hmm . surely somethings happened . gifted from Allah . baby hijab dye terbuka . cuma dye xboleh nak bgtau kita apa dye nampak . then tadi aku pom search google pasal baby nanges waktu maghrib nie bagai . nie info2 nya .
ustaz kata, ada beberapa tanda macam mana kita nak tahu yang budak tu kena gangguan . nie tanda-tanda untuk bayi atau anak kecil :-
- Mata dia akan melilau melihat sekeliling kekiri kekanan.
- Menangis meraung-raung tetapi tiada airmata.
- Menangis seolah-olah sedang kesakitan sangat-sangat.
- Menangis dalam keadaan takut.
- Tidur dalam keadaan terkejut-kejut.
- Tidur di selang seli dengan tangisan.
- Menangis pada waktu-waktu tertentu setiap hari. Contoh, hari ni menangis pukul 3 pagi, esoknya pon menangis pukul 3 pagi, lusa pon pukul 3 pagi.
- Mengeluarkan suara yang mendayu-dayu dan berpanjangan. Boleh terjadi dalam keadaan tidak sedarkan diri (ketika tidur).
- Menangis dan menjerit dalam keadaan ketakutan dan menggigil seolah-olah disergah oleh sesuatu yang menakutkan.
how to handle this, cepat2 pegi amek air ,then bace Al-Fatihah 11 kali, Ayat Kursi 11 kali, selawat 11 kali . niatkan dalam hati untuk pulihkan baby kita tu . Pastu air tu, korang sapu-sapu sikit kat ubun-ubun, pastu buat macam amek wuduk kat budak tu .
And aku ada baca jugak, dye cakap pastikan kita selalu pegi melawat tempat2 tinggal kita . contoh cam bilik2 kosong ke, stor ke, even no reason . asalkan tahu still bertuan . lebih kurang gitu lar .
err, sebenarnya banyak lagi aku dapat info . tapi sorilah . aku seram sikit bab2 macam nie . and aku rase , tu jelah kot . hope dapat sedikit ilmu . Alhamdulillah . Allah maha besar . Allahuakbar . w'slm .
Assalamualaikum .
It get closer and closer from days to days . and my heart tooo , keep dup dap dup dap waiting for some miracle to happen . i guess . i went to bsn yesterday just to look for maktab pin . but , yes ofcourse it's still unavailable yet as the result is obviously still not coming out . so, waiting . that's people called ikhtiar isn't ?
so the uitm pin too . ptptn ? yes , all after the result . mybe anyone can start apply for the ptptn but i'm not sure i'll apply it for now as ... no one told me too .muehehehe . as usual , soksek soksek my geng told me this this and this then , i'll take my action too . waiting for the kelamkabut habes baru nak gerak . hmm . the point is , can u see how precious the result is ? err . even it's just a piece of paper . *blackandwhite . right ?
i've thought about it so many times . what i've expected to be in university or the same type of college that i'll be in one day . what'll it be ? is it nice ? awesome ? best ? creepy one ? thrilling ? pathetic ? hectic ? or unexpected ? hope it'll be not such a spooky one ! -.-'
i'll try to keep du'a for the best result and the best place to get study after my result this march . yeah for sure it's not easy to find the best best place ever . we have no choice sometimes . so that , thanks to government to give us choice and place to study atleast . if not , where should you study ? get a free education ? hmm . go to other country lah . you have a choice so , u decide . no free in this world okay ?
hmm . still wondering and thinking . what will happen in university later . am i big and matured enough to be in university ? wah , i'd still remember when i was child . i've thought that i could never step forward to that place . what's playing on my mind that time , just 'waahh . yeah . place for the genius people , for business people , surely they've studied a lot to get in here . how can i get in that high place ?' now then, insyaAllah , if i have the chance and rezeki, i wish to get in university too . who doesn't want to emerge triumphant in their studies isn't ? well education have a brighten future .
Ya Allah seriously im so scared . i'm scared if i become anybody else . getting worse . or common said, shocked culture ! well nauzubillah min zalikk ...i don't want to . i have my islam , my parents and my family as well . i'll be not become recon of ME . MYSELF for sure .
Haaa . seriously i'm get jealous with the others who got straight A's in their SPM . really2 . especially the A++++ . impossible for me right ? but who knows ? was i said 'miracle' just now? hehe . just wait and tawakkal . insyaAllah .
My daily things to do everyday just still the same , nothing's changing . keke . but i just received something from my brother and sister . :3 surely happy, satisfied for getting something new and i succeed to reduce my period of sitting in front of lappy for this 2 and 3 days . muehehe . improvement atleast ? might not be last longer .
This Thursday is my schedule for my license . ohhhh maii . the stressed one is my bike thing . pls , i don't like it as for sure because i don't know how how how to ride a bike ! cincauu yoooo . saddiss . i have to as my father told me to . yeah , follow what parents said and it's worked for their child one day . good thing ofcourse .
Now i'm watching DreamHigh 1 . err . no no . already finished it . keke . best drama ! i loike . DH 2 ? hmm . not bad . JB from se7en . heh ? but i still don't watch it . busy with my new stuff and whatsoever . My brother and sister went outstation to Bandung for their work . best for strolling around and i'm here just sitting making some 'fats' . my father just told me last night . ah chukaee ! for adding some kilos . might be . :3 he told me to lessen my supper thing . pardon ? well thats my habit , father . sob3 . he told me that i'm getting fat . serious . But what's my action for the statement ? or comment ? none .
because of boring and no-else-act to do, i'm trying to figure out something for my course and studies later . yeah, just checkout something for some english things . here we are :-
haha . so fun .
about the course, insyaAllah . please do du'a for me too . i'm hoping for TESL . yeah , for my first choice, i chose ASASI BAHASA INGGERIS at UIAM . Ya Allah , im hoping for it badly . although im weak in english , but i want to learn it till i'll get better . i love english . *muehehe*
by hoop or by crook , i gotta wait for the result first . hmm . nothing else . wordless . oke then . waiting for the next entry . salam maghrib . Assalamualaikum (:
Patience is the best way . so, patience . Allah knows the best .
Assalamualaikum .
Shocking shocking shocking ! gaaah .. i just got an information bout the date of my result , it's 20 March 2013 ! subhanallah . it's really around the corner right ? really really the ... my heartbeat increases ! my body keep shivering ! and my blood also increases ! errr , soo2 nervous and get scarier than i thought . well . can be seen here , if i'm confident with my effort , i don't have to fear or something to think a lot about my result soon , is it ? well , exactly i'm weak . hmm . no need too much tensed right . we do the best , tried the best to get the best , and now we only can keep hope , hope and hope . tawakal pada Allah s.w.t . kita merancang, Allah menentukan bukan ? Allah the rest . but it's still . sape tak takut kan ? the result yang menentukan kat mana kita nanti , well bg aku not toooo much pada masa depan . ade je orang berjaya kebabom even tak masuk U even overseas bagai . well tulah orang kate , rezeki daripada Allah . 'Tuah ayam nmpak kat kaki, tapi manusia kita xthu' , soo semua atas rezeki . kalau kita nak , insyaAllah kita dapat dengan adenye usaha . and now , kita nak tengok dulu apa hasil kita selepas kita berhempas pulas study abes duet sume for 5years niee . berbaloi atau tak ? hanya dua options . YES or NO ? depends (: tapi ofcourselah . no one hopes for disappointment right ? sume nak happy and rasa memang tak sia2 lar belajar and get the best best ever result for their spm . no worries for me pls . mak aihh siyess aku takot . *sigh*
big award for my parents as well . Ya Allah , we never lose hope to keep du'a . du'a and du'a , to give the best for us #Batch35 and all 2012spmcandidates . ameen . :') tawakal je skrg nie kan ? for you guys my 35 , hope we can give our sesmacikgu really wide and awesome smile and laughter this 20March . ameen (: takpelah sebulan dari sekarang pom, yang penting sama2 nak ingatkan . kita ade Allah yang always listens for our wants . keep du'a and tawakal . :') see you for the next entry . lailan saidan . salam semua (:
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Assalamualaikum .
Alhamdulillah Allah gave me a strength strength today to write even just a little bit bit tiny tiny about me, myself , and my own . i've read an article from this girl . Allah servant and she is very lucky to get a special and better education than anyone else . a girl . Can u imagine that, a girl in a very beginning stage can talk about Islam more than adults can do ? can u feel the shame as i am ? is it ? no, i mean , she is very young compared to others muslimah or muslims who spread dakwah . well, its obviously once in a blue moon to find this kind of girl . actually, i was recommended by my sahabat to this girl, if u wanna know the details, just visit her blog or twitter or facebook or her video . she used v-log to share ilmu with others :) just click here . http://aisyahshakirah.blogspot.com/
Well honestly, i feel so ashamed and sooo weak compared to her . seriously, my heart hurt so much whenever i'm trying to compare myself with others . :'( Ya Allah , i didn't blame anyone . i wish to be like the other muslimah that can share her ilmu to others . But, i'm still in my own world and still learning about everything . well, i think that i should be myself and the ilmu that i learnt just be enough for myself in need . atleast . *sigh* . just be cool and try to save all the ilmu that i get , rite . insyaAllah .
Guys , whos still studying, stop thinking about your man or commonly as u called your will be imam for your future pls ? . well, that is my opinion as i still can bear and prevent myself from those thing now . who knows tomorrow or tomorrow then i will get myself into that thing suddenly? so, thats y i can't talk too much rite?. i'm just wanna remind you guys, the outsiders about this LOVE thing . im surely 100% you know all this thing . so, no point im gonna waste my time to give my nonsense opinion more rite ? :P eh eh . what is this ? seriously seriously seriously ! frustrated made me down and as u can see, nonsense , miserable and ridiculousness ! :'(
well i have my own problem too . i feel sad and blaming myself for my weakness :'( nobody can understand me except Allah . i praised to Him as he gave me a very beautiful gift named 'mother' . Alhamdulillah . even though i weak, He gave me strength :') Thank You Allah
Well honestly, i feel so ashamed and sooo weak compared to her . seriously, my heart hurt so much whenever i'm trying to compare myself with others . :'( Ya Allah , i didn't blame anyone . i wish to be like the other muslimah that can share her ilmu to others . But, i'm still in my own world and still learning about everything . well, i think that i should be myself and the ilmu that i learnt just be enough for myself in need . atleast . *sigh* . just be cool and try to save all the ilmu that i get , rite . insyaAllah .
Guys , whos still studying, stop thinking about your man or commonly as u called your will be imam for your future pls ? . well, that is my opinion as i still can bear and prevent myself from those thing now . who knows tomorrow or tomorrow then i will get myself into that thing suddenly? so, thats y i can't talk too much rite?. i'm just wanna remind you guys, the outsiders about this LOVE thing . im surely 100% you know all this thing . so, no point im gonna waste my time to give my nonsense opinion more rite ? :P eh eh . what is this ? seriously seriously seriously ! frustrated made me down and as u can see, nonsense , miserable and ridiculousness ! :'(
well i have my own problem too . i feel sad and blaming myself for my weakness :'( nobody can understand me except Allah . i praised to Him as he gave me a very beautiful gift named 'mother' . Alhamdulillah . even though i weak, He gave me strength :') Thank You Allah
