Assalamualaikum.
My heart hurts so bad . i kept to myself since then .
This is all because of my mouth . I knew it i got such a badmouth .
Dulu aku teringin sangat nak ada mulut laser sebb aku selalu kena tegur sebb aku noob sgt . Follow kaki org and just angguk cakap orang . Well tak salah bukan ? (ye . memg aku salah sebb ad cita2 mengarut begitu) bukan apa . untuk pertahankan diri .
My life is miserable . sangat kan ? tapi aku jenis cepat letgo . Jenis susah sikit nak jaga tepi kain orang . Short term , selfish . Kidding no , am not that type of person tbh . i mean , aku jenis malas nak panjang2 . tapi bila bab aku rasa aku penyebab masalah , aku tak senang duduk . i need to ask for apologize asap sebb hati rasa2 sangat bersalah . so not be categorized as selfish yet , no .
My parents should be happy , as a child , me , did not doing anything weird thingy or something like that so far . ALHAMDULILLAH for myself . tp ada la dulu time sekolah aku buat kes . tp xsampai mak ayah kena panggil . just i told them in the first hand , tc told me that they'll take my case seriously and be informed to my parents , so thats why.
Just wanna say that , kau buat apa2 pun dalam hidup kau , first to think is your parents . Just think about them, how'd they feel when they know something fishy might be happening to their children ? disappointed right .
Buat apa2 pikir dulu , pakai akal Allah bagi , Pikir dalam2 . Betul ke aku buat ni ? Betul ke ? Allah bagi ke buat semua ni ? Yes , THINK . Allah tak limitkan masa kita untuk berfikir .
As for those people yang masih ada mak ayh , ask forgiveness from them . dont make them sad . it's Sin if we make them cry . Kau senang duduk tak bila tengok mak ayah kita sedih ? especially sebb kebodohan kita . mesti tak kan . kita dalam hidup ni as long as dpat berkat mak ayah , Allah , semua jadi . Yakin . Janji Allah pasti .
and aku ase daripada aku sharing to other people yang mungkin xkkan faham aku, i chose to be ALONE . praise to Allah for my blessed family .
