I am not complicated.

I am easily to be predicted.

Every day it feels like...broken...

Haha fck

Assalamualaikum.

I always saying to myself that, the last choice that I have to recover my skin is...Accutane.
I was extremely scared to take this decision for my life but I don't know what was going through my mind that day, I was giving up, and directly went to specialist to cure my skin. I was tired, emotionally, and my confidence level was decreased 180 degrees tbh. Since that I got a little penny in my bank, I was not hesitated to invest for my skin + health.

I seek for dermatologist in Damansara. It was AY Skin Specialist & Aesthetic. I spent RM750 for the first time. The Dr explained about the acnes and all. I told him about my antibiotcs-resistance and all also. He said that ab only cures the surface, not inside. He consulted me with the treatments. They got a package for acne for RM750. Without further ado, I made a choice. Then, the facial treatment started. The aesthetician treat my face. First, she pinched and removed all the bumps, cystic acnes on the surface of my face. DAMN ! Can you imagine that? It was hurt as hell. My tears keep falling down. My face turned to red like grill prawns. HAHA. Sick. Rest for awhile. She put cream on my face. After half an hour, Dr came. I got laser on my face. TWO TIMES. HURT as hell too. STINGS too much. That was my first time, so it was tortured I told u. After settling everything, I paid for the service. The Dr gave me accutane for a month and a cream for the post-laser.

I am not lying when I said that my face really dull and gloomy after the laser and still now.

About the accutane, Dr adviced me not to get married and pregnant within 6 months. That was the most important thing he told me before I took it. Fyi, the effects of the accutane is kinda bloodcurdling story.

The effects that I faced when I took accutane was:
- Dryness
- My hair loss
- Dried eyes (cannot long-term in aircond)
- Dried lips
- My gum bleeding :(
- Less oil on my face

I think nothing more besides that. I hope that everything will be fine, Masha Allah. I keep my patience for a long time already... I keep trying.

I was in the 2nd months of Accutane. The photo was weeks ago in my 1st month of Accutane.

I will come again in several months. Thanks for reading :)

Assalamualaikum.

Here is the time, is the comeback for my worrying phase. Day by day passes, and I'm getting scared to face the world. Can I get what I want? This is what I feel after my SPM last 6 years. I cried every day almost getting depressed when I got 5As for my SPM. I was sad because I really wanna study abroad so much. He is the best planner right? After several months, I was moving on. The worst was during my matriculation level. After finishing the 2nd semesters, I could not see my future. All I see was darkness. I didn't know where to finish since I couldn't figure out the beginning.

Damn, my life was a mess previously. Then, here I am today, and the worries come to enthrall me with the jumble.
Help me. 2 months to go for my internship to finish.

To accept something, is not easy as spoken. You may assume that it is nothing but it is actually hurting you inside. I believe, i put trust. And wait.

Assalamualaikum.

This is gonna be short. I'm on internship phase now. Kinda lifeless but I have my 'life'.  Stay positive honey !

Phase by phase. I have to go through this. No matter how many times i've given up, i'm standing still. Why can't i just let go everything?

Assalamualaikum wbt.


Finally ! After a few times i attempted to share my Korea’s story, i’m here to start it.

Bila dah datang rajin dia, boleh lah kita ikutkan. Bila dah malas, semua tak jadi. So, i’ll start it before I continue my assignments yg berlambak tu (even baru week2). Selagi tak siapkan entry ni, I cannot do my works calmly. Cannot moveon ! (cehh)

Okay first sekali aku akan ceritakan mengenai Korea serba sedikit. Korang mesti tak tahu kan, selain Jepun, Korea ni merupakan tempat asal sebelah mak aku. so bila sampai sana, kami stay kawasan Hongdae sebab situ ada rumah mak sedara aku yg berketurunan Korea. Haaa okay. Maaflah. Hanya bercanda.

I know, everyone dreams to be in Korea atleast, kan? Sebab Korea ni bukan hanya tempat untuk peminat Kpop mahupun K-drama lover, tapi Korea ni merupakan negara yang sangat menarik untuk dilawati. Dari segi tempat untuk shopping, sehinggalah tempat untuk berehat macam Busan, where there’s a pantai and laut sangat calming even kat tempat kita pun ada. Tapi kalau ikutkan semua benda dh ada kt tempat kita, tak payah pergi mana-manalah macamtu kan. Let’s get out from comfort zone okay?

Since i was in secondary school, setiap hari aku berangan nak sampai ke Korea. Always with Korea things. Doa setiap hari semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kita di dunia dan akhirat. Alhamdulillah, finally, boleh sampai ke Korea, smoothly, with my best friend ever ! We shared the same dream and ya Allah we did it. We struggled tau, bukan senang-senang nak sampai sana since kami pun bukan daripada keturunan kaya raya. We couldn’t be happier. The snow was unexpected !!! It was a bonussssss

Aku kalini ke Korea bersama my only bff and hanya both of us. Best kan? You’ll survive together and cry together with the two of you.

Alright, so aku akan listkan satu-satu and highlight setiap topik yang akan dibincangkan dalam entry kalini ye.

Application 
1. KakaoMap
                                                                    Link: KakaoMap

Guys, benda ni wajib ada tau ! Haha. Sebab benda ni membantu gila time kat sana. Nak cari satu-satu tempat bukan senang ye guys. Memerlukan kesabaran dan keberanian. Kalau korang sesat, just be chill and bertenang. Aku ni jenis cepat gelabah. But, with Sapika, aku okay sebab dia yang banyak bersabar and kept both of us in good term. Pandai-pandai la cari partner ye korang kalau nak travel. I used this nak cari our place from AirBnB since takde kt google. Also we used GoogleMaps sometimes but still, KakaoMap banyak digunakan. Download okay.

2. KakaoMetro
Second thing is the train/metro. You know that metro will be your main transportation there. We never used taxi even masa last day in Hongdae, aku almost giveup sebab basah snow and kena bawak beg berat. Time tu jugak beg aku patah handle. What a shock. But, Sapika convinced not to giveup easily. Hehe. Baiklah.
From this apps, korang boleh tengok satu-satu routes with the prices also. Mudahkan? All routes included and senang sangat korang nak decide nak pergi mana-mana. Download ye.

3. Klook/Kkday


Klook and Kkday ni kami guna before sampai sana. Nak book tiket apa semua, we used this. Sangat mudah, korang pilih pakej and bayar. Korang ikut je date and time dia, semua bisa diatur. We used Kkday to book Nami and Hanbok. But that time, Sa used voucher from KTO for hanbok. Dapat diskaun banyak jugak but KTO will not provide you with locker. Kalau book dengan Kkday, korang akan dapat Hanbok+locker. Masatu aku ambik 4 jam punya. Untuk tiket train, we used Klook and same with Lotte World.

4. AirBnB

Okay, for the accommodation, we used AirBnB apps to rent a place. Sangat sangat worth sebab for the first time user, korang akan dapat diskaun 120. Bnyak gila kan. Kami dua orang, so kami gunakan both untuk Busan and Seoul. Sebab tu mcam jimat gila ! Takyah guna booking.com dah.

Things to have
Since aku pergi time winter, i’ll share these things mostly on winter season okay.

1. T-Money
The compulsory thing you must have in Korea. Topup siap-siap, takyah fikir tak cukup transportation fee. Aku topup 70,000 won and boleh cover Seoul and Busan within 10 days siap ada balance. Hehe. Senang bukan. You’ll get this from KTO in KL for free. Go get it siap dapat voucher and maps. 
 2. Socket
Yang ni pun penting kan sebab kitorang stay in AirBnB so make sense kalau kena cari this thing by our own. Socket same with Japan and jangan lupa bawak !! Nak cas nanti guna apa woi. Aku punya beli kat DIY and it’s worth. Harga dia dalam belas-belas centu. Takkan nak cari kat sana kot. Mahal. 

3. Money
The top compulsory thing to keep in yourself. Money money money. Exchange dekat Bukit Bintang, Petaling or NuSentral, macam berbaloi sikit walaupun takde apa beza sangat pun unless korang nak bawak 20,000. Huhu

4. Passport
Korang mesti dh kena bawak passport kan. Takde benda ni tak keluar lah kita nanti. Takut juga ya sampai-sampai kat imigresen kena sekat sebab tak bayar PTPTN. Haha. Don’t worry. Actually passport ni sangat berguna untuk claim tax barang yang korang beli (eg: Myeongdong, Hongdae etc). banyak juga tax dia so always bawak your passport kemana-mana. Nanti kt airport, jgn lupa claim barang yang boleh di claim. Be alert sebb kenkadang mungkin kita boleh terlepas nak claim.
5. Toiletteries
On your own but our AirBnB dah sediakan semua except HarryTage hanya sediakan shampoo. Apa lah Harry ni. Harap muka je cute ahah. Tapi kalau tak bawak, beli je kat convenience store. Satu berus gigi dalam 1,400won. Dalam 5ringgit kot. (sebab aku beli haha)


6. Bubble Jacket
This is mostly used by Korean. Sebab sejuk sangat kan. Dorang punya fashion bubble jacket ni yang jenis labuh tu. So kalau korang nak uptodate macam dorang, belilah macamtu ye. Remember with black color. Berlapis pun still sejuk. Ingat dorang dah biasa sejuk-sejuk macamtu, tapi sama je macam kita. Terketaq.
 

7. Trench Coat
It will look more fashionable but kena pakai banyak lapis inside the coat. Aku bawak 2 black trenchcoat and beli satu lagi black t.c kt sana. Another brown t.c and 2 bubble jacket. Dark color is a way better. Korang pandai-pandai la padankan dengan different baju even same trenchcoat/jacket sebab kat AirBnB ada mesin basuh. Jangan ingat travel tak basuh baju pulak. HAHA noob.
8. Heattech
Yang ni kena pakai kat dalam. Sangat membantu even still sejuk tapi atleast dapat melindungi badan kita daripada masuk angin sejuk. Pakai heattech+sweatshirt, it’ll get better. About the attire that you’ll wear kt sana, please buat list siap-siap nak pakai baju apa on that that. Serious, nanti senang tak payah pikir nak try satu-satu baju apa nak match.



9. Heatpad
To be honest, kami tak guna pun heatpad. Hehe. Sejuk memang sejuk tapi kami berjaya tak gunakan heatpad. Cool heh. Tapi bawak la jugak nanti kalau sejuk kejung mana nak cari heatpad. Daiso la jawab dia kan.

10. RoamingMan
Masa kat Jepun aku guna TravelRecommends. Very nice tp kalini kami try roamingMan pulak. BEST too with cheaper price. So aku boleh sarankan korang guna ye. Bateri pun lama. Early morning sampai late night tau. Terbaek laaaa ! Kami sewa dalam 9 hari so the total was 120 inc charge apa semua. Dia tak sama cam TR. Kalau TR ada deposit kan. So, boleh la try lepasni. Line pun laju je.



11. Mask
It is an optional but since Korea sangat berjerebu and the coldness will get into your nose and lips, better you put the mask. It’ll get better until you put on the glasses. (you’ll see nothing sebab asap keluar ikut mask).



Ticket price?
For the ticket, macam biasa kami ambik AirAsia. Yang from Busan mahal sikit tapi still sempat on promo !
Here is the details about the price of the tickets including baggage:

Where we stay?
Masa kat Seoul, kami stay di AirBnB Hongdae. Nama place tu HarryTage. Owner sangat baik but must be extra careful sebab dia ada camera kt living room. Aware sikit ye. Harry tu cute sangat. Ada satu malam tu dia tanya Sa sebab muka Sa tired sangat. “Are ypu drunk?” HAHA apalah Harry ni. Haritu pun ada dia datang umah sebab ada penghuni baru then dia pun datang kat kitorang kt meja makan. Masatu kami tengah makan maggi. “What are you eating?” softly asked. “Noodle” then dia cakap “Oo’, nadoo. nadoo” eee comel sungguh.

• Seoul: Harry

Kat Busan, kami stay di Dadaepo, Saha-Gu. Best sangat sebab owner dia baik gila. Kami share ilmu in terms of politics and religions. Dia tak makan pork but her mom did. Kat sana ada sekali dia masakkan untuk kami. Best sangat ! Nasi goreng kimchi ! Hehe. Baik kan. Rumah dia lengkap ada semua kelengkapan. Dia merupakan Cikgu German di Uni and sangat fluent in English. Dia stay kt Jerman 10 tahun tak silap. Btw, the view is extra cool sebab betul-betul nampak laut iaitu Dadaepo-Beach !

• Busan: Yunsei

What we eat?
About food, kami makan makanan bekal kitorang. Selain tu, kitorang beli nasi instant dalam bekas tu, then kami masak lauk yang bawak. Kalau makanan Korea, kami makan kt Gosame. Best gilooo ! Sedap sangat sotong diaaaa. Pedas and sedap. Korang pergi sana wajib pergi Gosame sebab Sa kata situ memang orang Muslim pergi makan. Sampai kat sana pun ramai orang Malaysia. Sampai-sampai kat meja je dia angkatkan nasi and kimchi and plain water.

How we pray?
Kami solat di rumah and kalau jadual padat, kami solat di tepi tangga ye. Kebetulan masa tu both of us on leave for several days masa di Seoul. Last day schedule tu kami sempat solat di Itaewon and jumpa orang Machang. HAHA

ITINERARY TIME !!

For the itinerary, i’ll provide the details in our excel file. Here:
(Thanks to WanNorsapika for Busan iti)

•  DREAM TO KOREA

Kuala Lumpur (KLIA2) - Incheon (ICN)

Excited gila ! Hari yang dinantikan akhirnya sampai weh. Allah, tak terungkap rasanya. Flight was on the midnight. Sampai-sampai boleh gi jalan dulu kan. Ambik flight malam tau !
First Day kami sampai kat rumah pukul 1 lebih sebab nak cari rumah pun dah banyak ambik masa. Fuh. After letak-letak barang kemas apa semua, kami keluar nak cari makanan dalam pukul 3.30. Yang ni takde dalam iti sebab kami lapar. Supposedly pagi tu kami ke Incheon tapi sebab sangat complicated nak naik bas, we cancelled. Balik ke rumah terus and cari makan. We went to Gosame in Sinchon. It was only one station from Hongdae. Kejap sangat. After makan, kami pergi Dongdaemun pulak. Yang ni ada several stations. Nanti tengok kt KakaoMetro. Then masa kt Dongdaemun tulah aku baru kenal makanan ikan red bean tu. Sa suka gila sampai aku pun suka ! Serious sedap…! Hanya 1,000won for 3pieces. Rindu nak makan lagi…Then kami balik ke Hongdae (Hongik Uni. Station).


Okay nanti aku sambung lagi untuk hari ke 2 sehingga 10 HAHA. See you on next entry :)

Assalamualaikum.

Finally, I gave up. My last semester result proved that i meant what i said beforehand. You know why i stopped struggling? i give up.