Assalamualaikum .

Before this, in the prev post, i’ve mentioned about my skin condition yang dh better since December until February and updated until April. Alhamdulillah it’s worked for me til July. Here it goes again. I’m facing the same bad dream for the sekian kali. I’m giving up for real. Why this is happening to me ?????? I’m being grateful !

Assalamualaikum...


Allahu... Finally, I've graduated from UiTM Machang in Diploma of Information Management. After 2 years and half of struggling and everything, it's worth at the end :(


You know, I can't describe how was my feeling that time. I was so excited and pleased at the same time. I made my parents proud. I made my family proud. They saw me in the hall with a wide and bright smile. I know, the feeling was indescribable. Even it's just Diploma for some of you said, I did my best and made them happy to have me as their daughter. I've never asked for more. Just enough to make my family happy for the who I am right now.


I wore Selempang Pink on that day. I was so so happy. I cried inside coz I was too grateful. Masha Allah when will I feel this way anymore? There will be another chance in future? Nobody knows. People came and congratulated me. I was touched by praises and everything. My lecturer took the photo of me and that made me touched too.


Before going on the stage, I was so nervous! Like, why so nervous? It's JUST a convo! Stay calm! But I was not 😂 I was being clumsy since morning that I ruined my makeup a lil bit with my sweats. Heol, sweat blood tears ! Until I left my phone in the car! That was so so sad though as I couldn't take photos of my friends. But, I stay happy as long as I can see my friends even for short moments.


I was excited to see my friends in the first place. I couldn't wait to see My Che Anis and My Ana. We haven't met like almost a year? (several months. I was exaggerated) Allahu how I miss them. The second one, I was excited to meet those happy chills friends. Syamira, Dini, Idah, Yaya, Ika, Shahzul. They were so good to me even though I was not too close compared to themselves. They were great but I didn't know how to describe it in words.


For me, everything was fine.


I was so thankful, to my ayah and mak for always doakan for the best. Without their bless and doa, I was nothing. The lecturers and my fellow groupmate, I was nothing without them. I was not too special and that excellent to deserve all this. Masha Allah what a rizq.


Remember, it's not always us to do all things, but it's always the blessing from Allah, parents, lecturers, and friends. Be nice, let people talk.


I know, I am just a little poor girl who knows nothing. But, I struggled. I worked hard for it. I always remind to myself, I cannot take it for granted. Always be thankful. Always. Never leave Him. Love our parents. Always.


"Disebalik kejayaan kita, ada orang yang mendoakan kejayaan kita"


Jangan pernah putus asa tau semua ! :) INSHA ALLAH

Assalamualaikum.

This video was made last year. That was when my face was still okay, not too bad. Hehe. Here is the video. That product was Desi Damayanti.

Assalamualaikum.



Well, I've passed my SEMESTER 3 of degree ! Ya Allah , ya Allah . I couldn't describe how was the feeling. You know, i expressed my thoughts, struggles (never stated), sadness, stress, and everything but Allah made it possible. I know, i would say this. That was not only my struggles, but also from the blessing by the people around me such as parents, lecturers and friends. It was not possible if i say that, it came just by myself alone. Ya Allah, i heard that this semester will be more challenging. Ya Allah, how i survived last semester, was so hurt . May You help me to be strong !!!!

12/02/2018

Seems like it has been so long that i didnt upload selfies to my social media. Quite so long compared to my diploma phase.




Here’s the story i wanna share about her.

She used to have a lot of selfies with different styles even tho she had a quite of flaws (on her face). She was not in a better place after all ? She still had lots of flaws on her face. She still didnt want to live that way coz she thought that she could be better. Well you know, being flawless without scars ? She tried another products to enhance her skin. But remember guys, once action did, forever it remains. The products she used were quite suitable for her (better than before). Much better she said. Then it became disaster ever in her life. Her skin became itchy coz she used aloe (not sure because of aloe). She changed her skincare , cleanser from cetaphil to another (like 2 cleansers before disaster). She used cream from himalaya as well like the cleanser. After that, her skin started to pop up some of tiny bumps. Itchy. She tried to put some lemon on her face. She tried to put baking soda , then apple cider vinegar (heol, all acidic). After a few days, her skin became worst. The tiny bumps were starting to ask their friends along. The marks became clearer (not faded but clearer to see). She became panicked and began to lose her confident so bad. It was awful that time , when she had lots of presentation and class activities to finish. It was communication with people, well you understand right ? She cried and she almost had a mental breakdown. She stressed out (it was bad that making the skin problem became worst). Then without thinking, she decided to seek for a dermatologist nearby. She consumed medicines (antibiotic) and she has been told that she need more than 6 months to see any changes. (Heol, kidding me?!). Well, thats how she survived now. It has been 3months now. How fast things happened with that face. Within a month ? 2017 in 2017.
Please stay grateful for your skin whatever it is. Your skin is your asset. Don’t make stupid actions that will ruin your skin hence your life will be ruined. Stay patient. There will be a light, one day. ( i hope).

Stay pretty to the pretty out there.



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Alhamdulillah. For several months, there are a few of my close friends told me about the condition of my skin. Atleast they got better. Allahu, I am so grateful even though i am not fully recovered. But Allah helped me to improve some of confidence. Even not too much, but i hope it'll get better.


22/03/2018

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21/04/2018


SUNLIGHT HELPS ME !

I got some support from my own by thinking that I could go further, to achieve my dreams, to study outside of the country. yes, sincerely. I studied hard last year, thinking of my parents, family, school and myself, my dream. but, Allah knows the best, I continued my study here, stay in Malaysia, at the same place. My thought said no, but Allah says yes. Who will deny it when Allah said that the things that you love, will not supposedly you get, but the things that you hate will you get instead. Allah, my heart. Why couldn't I hide my feeling? I couldn’t say that I was strong because I was so hurt. I’m in pain. I told people that I was okay. I told people that I could face it. But no one knows how long I could bear it? did you see my tears? no one sees it. My heart was broken, no one asked. Because? I’m going through all my own.

For my friends who were going thru with me all those time, I appreciated it a lot. I love you.