Assalamualaikum .

 

It get closer and closer from days to days . and my heart tooo , keep dup dap dup dap waiting for some miracle to happen . i guess . i went to bsn yesterday just to look for maktab pin . but , yes ofcourse it's still unavailable yet as the result is obviously still not coming out . so, waiting . that's people called ikhtiar isn't ? 

so the uitm pin too . ptptn ? yes , all after the result . mybe anyone can start apply for the ptptn but i'm not sure i'll apply it for now as ... no one told me too .muehehehe . as usual , soksek soksek my geng told me this this and this then , i'll take my action too . waiting for the kelamkabut habes baru nak gerak . hmm . the point is , can u see how precious the result is ? err . even it's just a piece of paper . *blackandwhite . right ?

i've thought about it so many times . what i've expected to be in university or the same type of college that i'll be in one day . what'll it be ? is it nice ? awesome ? best ? creepy one ? thrilling ? pathetic ? hectic ? or unexpected ? hope it'll be not such a spooky one ! -.-'

i'll try to keep du'a for the best result and the best place to get study after my result this march . yeah for sure it's not easy to find the best best place ever . we have no choice sometimes . so that , thanks to government to give us choice and place to study atleast . if not , where should you study ? get a free education ? hmm . go to other country lah . you have a choice so , u decide .  no free in this world okay ?

hmm . still wondering and thinking . what will happen in university later . am i big and matured enough to be in university ? wah , i'd still remember when i was child . i've thought that i could never step forward to that place . what's playing on my mind that time , just 'waahh . yeah . place for the genius people , for business people , surely they've studied a lot to get in here . how can i get in that high place ?' now then, insyaAllah , if i have the chance and rezeki, i wish to get in university too . who doesn't want to emerge triumphant in their studies isn't ? well education have a brighten future .

Ya Allah seriously im so scared . i'm scared if i become anybody else . getting worse . or common said, shocked culture ! well nauzubillah min zalikk ...i don't want to . i have my islam , my parents and my family as well . i'll be not become recon of ME . MYSELF for sure .

Haaa . seriously i'm get jealous with the others who got straight A's in their SPM . really2 . especially the A++++ . impossible for me right ? but who knows ? was i said 'miracle' just now? hehe . just wait and tawakkal . insyaAllah .

My daily things to do everyday just still the same , nothing's changing . keke . but i just received something from my brother and sister . :3 surely happy, satisfied for getting something new and i succeed to reduce my period of sitting in front of lappy for this 2 and 3 days . muehehe . improvement atleast ? might not be last longer . 

This Thursday is my schedule for my license . ohhhh maii . the stressed one is my bike thing . pls , i don't like it as for sure because i don't know how how how to ride a bike ! cincauu yoooo . saddiss . i have to as my father told me to . yeah , follow what parents said and it's worked for their child one day . good thing ofcourse .

Now i'm watching DreamHigh 1 . err . no no . already finished it . keke . best drama ! i loike . DH 2 ? hmm . not bad . JB from se7en . heh ? but i still don't watch it . busy with my new stuff and whatsoever . My brother and sister went outstation to Bandung for their work . best for strolling around and i'm here just sitting making some 'fats' . my father just told me last night . ah chukaee ! for adding some kilos . might be . :3 he told me to lessen my supper thing . pardon ? well thats my habit , father . sob3 . he told me that i'm getting fat . serious . But what's my action for the statement ? or comment ? none .

because of boring and no-else-act to do, i'm trying to figure out something for my course and studies later . yeah, just checkout something for some english things . here we are :-

http://learnenglishkids.britishcouncil.org/en/tongue-twisters

haha . so fun .

about the course, insyaAllah . please do du'a for me too . i'm hoping for TESL . yeah , for my first choice, i chose ASASI BAHASA INGGERIS at UIAM . Ya Allah , im hoping for it badly . although im weak in english , but i want to learn it till i'll get better . i love english . *muehehe*

by hoop or by crook , i gotta wait for the result first . hmm . nothing else . wordless . oke then . waiting for the next entry . salam maghrib . Assalamualaikum (:

Assalamualaikum .

First and foremost , congrates to my abg and kak rai for their big surprise !! Alhamdulillah . 5weeks baby . so happy and cannot wait for the baby born :D meow2 . goodbye lar soon for ontet and kak chek . hehe . our hopes, take care and never do too much heavy things keh ;) weloveyouboth . lailan saidan (:

Ohhhh ??? realllyyy ??

Shocking shocking shocking ! gaaah .. i just got an information bout the date of my result , it's 20 March 2013 ! subhanallah . it's really around the corner right ? really really the ... my heartbeat increases ! my body keep shivering ! and my blood also increases ! errr , soo2 nervous and get scarier than i thought . well . can be seen here , if i'm confident with my effort , i don't have to fear or something to think a lot about my result soon , is it ? well , exactly i'm weak . hmm . no need too much tensed right . we do the best , tried the best to get the best , and now we only can keep hope , hope and hope . tawakal pada Allah s.w.t . kita merancang, Allah menentukan bukan ? Allah the rest . but it's still . sape tak takut kan ? the result yang menentukan kat mana kita nanti , well bg aku not toooo much pada masa depan . ade je orang berjaya kebabom even tak masuk U even overseas bagai . well tulah orang kate , rezeki daripada Allah . 'Tuah ayam nmpak kat kaki, tapi manusia kita xthu' , soo semua atas rezeki . kalau kita nak , insyaAllah kita dapat dengan adenye usaha . and now , kita nak tengok dulu apa hasil kita selepas kita berhempas pulas study abes duet sume for 5years niee . berbaloi atau tak ? hanya dua options . YES or NO ? depends (: tapi ofcourselah . no one hopes for disappointment right ? sume nak happy and rasa memang tak sia2 lar belajar and get the best best ever result for their spm . no worries for me pls . mak aihh siyess aku takot . *sigh*

hmmmm ... worrieesss :'(

 big award for my parents as well . Ya Allah , we never lose hope to keep du'a . du'a and du'a , to give the best for us #Batch35 and all 2012spmcandidates . ameen . :') tawakal je skrg nie kan ? for you guys my 35 , hope we can give our sesmacikgu really wide and awesome smile and laughter this 20March . ameen (: takpelah sebulan dari sekarang pom, yang penting sama2 nak ingatkan . kita ade Allah yang always listens for our wants . keep du'a and tawakal . :') see you for the next entry . lailan saidan . salam semua (:

Assalamualaikum .

Alhamdulillah Allah gave me a strength strength today to write even just a little bit bit tiny tiny about me, myself , and my own . i've read an article from this girl . Allah servant and she is very lucky to get a special and better education than anyone else . a girl . Can u imagine that, a girl in a very beginning stage can talk about Islam more than adults can do ? can u feel the shame as i am ? is it ? no, i mean , she is very young compared to others muslimah or muslims who spread dakwah . well, its obviously once in a blue moon to find this kind of girl . actually, i was recommended by my sahabat to this girl, if u wanna know the details, just visit her blog or twitter or facebook or her video . she used v-log to share ilmu with others :) just click here . http://aisyahshakirah.blogspot.com/

Well honestly, i feel so ashamed and sooo weak compared to her . seriously, my heart hurt so much whenever i'm trying to compare myself with others . :'( Ya Allah , i didn't blame anyone . i wish to be like the other muslimah that can share her ilmu to others . But, i'm still in my own world and still learning about everything . well, i think that i should be myself and the ilmu that i learnt just be enough for myself in need . atleast . *sigh* . just be cool and try to save all the ilmu that i get , rite . insyaAllah .

Guys , whos still studying, stop thinking about your man or commonly as u called your will be imam for your future pls ? . well, that is my opinion as i still can bear and prevent myself from those thing now . who knows tomorrow or tomorrow then i will get myself into that thing suddenly? so, thats y i can't talk too much rite?. i'm just wanna remind you guys, the outsiders about this LOVE thing . im surely 100% you know all this thing . so, no point im gonna waste my time to give my nonsense opinion more rite ? :P eh eh . what is this ? seriously seriously seriously ! frustrated made me down and as u can see, nonsense , miserable and ridiculousness ! :'(

well i have my own problem too . i feel sad and blaming myself for my weakness :'( nobody can understand me except Allah . i praised to Him as he gave me a very beautiful gift named 'mother' . Alhamdulillah . even though i weak, He gave me strength :') Thank You Allah