Assalamualaikum.


thinking about ex of course, insanely sucks. no joking tho. how to move on. difficult isn’t it.

how girls’ thought. lelaki senang move on. but lelaki thought, kenapa perempuan senang sangat nak move on. ayat lelaki macam ala2 cair sikit, dah lentok. pastu sangkut. tak nafi pun. memang i’ve experienced this phase. i mean bukan overall based on my experience but of course my friends’ and my friends’ friends’ (ayat cover nak mati)
honestly, hati perempuan memang mudah cair. tapi pls believe, that kalau jumpa perempuan yang macam hard gila, batu, pasir, kayu, memang susah la nak dapat. lelaki kena faham, kalau ada yang macamtu, she’s the one :) 

if you really want her, go get her. dah tahu dia single kan. win her heart and jangan give up. try until you get. yang penting tips dia jangan pernah bosan ar. nak jadikan partner kan? so tahan la. nak dapat dh susah, in sha Allah nanti berbaloi la. macam kita tunggu for something. lambat xpe, asal berbaloi. tapi kena faham jugak, yang penting don’t expect too much. andai kata dia dah dapat lelaki pilihan hati dia, kau kena tabah lah. she’s not the one la tu :D 

so i think from here, lelaki or perempuan just sama je. tak boleh nak kata perempuan lebih setia or vice versa. same. yang penting nak atau tak nak. hati tak boleh nak paksa.
kalau nak tahu orang tu betul ke tak ikhlas dgn kita, dia tak mintak lebih. i mean macamnie lah. two people, boy and girl, be friends. and lelaki tu once confess kat perempuan tu. perempuan tu reject. but sebb lelaki tu sayang kt dia, he’s still be friends with her and tak kesahlar kena reject bagai tu. sebb, sayang tak semestinya memiliki kan ? i think that confession nie memang risiko besar seriously. i’ve been through a lot. rapat, rapat and rapat. then they confess. once kita cakap, like “we should be friends. i just see you as a friend etc” , they they go.

can u see that ? dah move on terus. i think tu bukan move on. tu macam quite tak matang la jugak. mesti sebab kau ego kan ? kau malu sebab kau rasa macam kau bodoh sebb kena reject and kau lari dari dia sebb kau rasa maruah kau dah jatuh kat dia. tipu la tak pernah lalui kan.
oh please lah. aku pun pernah kena reject kot. lek2 je aku kawan. okay jer. sebab tu la kau jangan anggap kau rapat dengan seseorang, tak kira la perempuan ke lelaki ke, jangan pernah melatah. kau ingat bila kau boleh ‘pegang’ dia rapat2, kau akan dapat dia sampai bila2 ke ? u should not have thought like that ! NO ! serious memang betul, bila kita tahu orang yang kita rapat, orang yang kita percaya and always spend time dgn kita dah confess something kat kita, kita mcam , be like , oh please , aku tak suka kau. sebb kau nampak aku bukan seorang kwan. tapi lebih dari tu. mesti kita tak selesa kan or dalam kata lain kau tak suka lah.
so i think, nak elak benda nie jadi macam nie, kau kena fikir dalam2 dulu. jangan terus nak ikut hati tu aje. fikir perasaan orang lain dulu. takut dia kena dapat kat orang lain ke ? if dia nak dapat kau, dia takkan cari lain :) so kalau nak kawan, kawan betul2. i hate la bila kawan then jadi relay nie. sebb turn to negative. tak tegur or be worse gaduh sampai mati. sedih la kan. member kamcing then end macam tu je.

one more, kau pernah tak lalui di mana ada someone adore kau and you could see their efforts to get you ? tapi kau tak expect pun dia nak layan kau macamtu sebb kau memang2 harapkan orang lain nak buat macam tu. kau keep waiting. and u blind yourselves from that person until you only rasa, no worries, there’s still a lot orang nak hargai aku macamtu.
MAYBE kau silap kot. yeke semua nak hargai kau ? bukan ke kau ke je yang duk mengharapkan orang duk hargai kau atas effort kau kt dia ? betul tak ?

tepuk dada tnya la hati tu .
just my 20cents, at least appreciate that ones. we do not know how they have been through. tapi no no. always always always be remember. jangan jadi mudah sangat. as a woman, we also got pride. jangan main sapu. choose wisely. solat istikharah. jangan jadi EASY. choose yang EXPERT. in sha Allah you’ll be the ones :)

wassalam.

The Holy Quran, Surah Al Baqarah 2:185

Assalamualaikum.

such a miserable. first to 4th weeks, desolated feeling and just exhilarated by the certain thing like friends and food. haha 

know what, gotta to handle lots of assignments and do have to submit asap is not a joke. stressful bruh

well that's life of student. chill

My heart hurts so bad . i kept to myself since then .

This is all because of my mouth . I knew it i got such a badmouth .

Dulu aku teringin sangat nak ada mulut laser sebb aku selalu kena tegur sebb aku noob sgt . Follow kaki org and just angguk cakap orang . Well tak salah bukan ? (ye . memg aku salah sebb ad cita2 mengarut begitu) bukan apa . untuk pertahankan diri .

My life is miserable . sangat kan ? tapi aku jenis cepat letgo . Jenis susah sikit nak jaga tepi kain orang . Short term , selfish . Kidding no , am not that type of person tbh . i mean , aku jenis malas nak panjang2 . tapi bila bab aku rasa aku penyebab masalah , aku tak senang duduk . i need to ask for apologize asap sebb hati rasa2 sangat bersalah . so not be categorized as selfish yet , no .

My parents should be happy , as a child , me , did not doing anything weird thingy or something like that so far . ALHAMDULILLAH for myself . tp ada la dulu time sekolah aku buat kes . tp xsampai mak ayah kena panggil . just i told them in the first hand , tc told me that they'll take my case seriously and be informed to my parents , so thats why.

Just wanna say that , kau buat apa2 pun dalam hidup kau , first to think is your parents . Just think about them, how'd they feel when they know something fishy might be happening to their children ? disappointed right .

Buat apa2 pikir dulu , pakai akal Allah bagi , Pikir dalam2 . Betul ke aku buat ni ? Betul ke ? Allah bagi ke buat semua ni ? Yes , THINK . Allah tak limitkan masa kita untuk berfikir .

As for those people yang masih ada mak ayh , ask forgiveness from them . dont make them sad . it's Sin if we make them cry . Kau senang duduk tak bila tengok mak ayah kita sedih ? especially sebb kebodohan kita . mesti tak kan . kita dalam hidup ni as long as dpat berkat mak ayah , Allah , semua jadi . Yakin . Janji Allah pasti .

and aku ase daripada aku sharing to other people yang mungkin xkkan faham aku, i chose to be ALONE . praise to Allah for my blessed family .

Okay thats all.